Today was a close call.....I started to fall off the wagon. Luckily, I was able to catch myself before I did! The fact that I did (catch myself) is HUGE. HUGE!!!!! I haven't been able to get back on the wagon since I fell off back in April. I lost 10 pounds in March and then all of a sudden I couldn't get it together. I'd have a few good days (or one) and then I'd slip...but instead of counting the points for the goodies I'd eaten, I would tell myself I'd do better tomorrow...and then the next day, etc., etc.
Around lunch time I was STARVING and craving anything and everything. I decided I would have a few of the White Cheddar Cheez-It's I love so much. Those darn things are tasty--but 3 points for a little handful. I could eat the whole box. Luckily, I didn't...but I did have about 2 servings worth of them. I took a little cat nap while Mason was napping to get rid of my headache. I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich while Mason had his snack. I had one of those mocha frappe things from McDonalds (without whipped cream) too. So what stopped me from falling off? Before going out to the grocery store I put on the jeans I bought on Saturday that were kind of tight....today they weren't tight. Woo Hoo!! I then re-planned the rest of the food for the evening. Instead of the beef stroganoff I was planning to make, I am baking some chicken breast and having some of that broccoli and cheese steamer things and a cup of soup. I put the crackers and the sandwich into my points tracker and I only ended up using 2.5 flex points after all that. Ohhhh....and I managed to get a little walk in. It was only 15 minutes...but that's a start, I suppose.
It's so exciting to me that I think I have finally found whatver it is I need to keep motivated and to keep myself on the right track. Once school starts in a few weeks I won't have as much free time as I do now, but I know that by having a few weeks already under my belt, I will make time.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Day 9....and a little rambling
Today has been great!! Not only have I counted everything and ate the healthy stuff, I still have 9 points left...and it's almost 8:00! Now I know that many people say it's not good to eat after 8 or whatever...but I have an 18 month old and I eat late. Not only that, but I usually only have a few points left after dinner. The difference today was that Brian and I worked out in the apartment (our part of the house that Brian's parents are so generously sharing with us for a while) all day.
Up until about 5 months ago we had two long haired cats that shed ALOT. We found them a new home in March because they were cooped up in the apartment because Brian's mom is allergic, and after experiencing life without cat hair, we stopped going out in to the apartment as often and they weren't getting enough attention....so back to today. We were working on getting the cat hair out. To do that we have to dust everything, wash the walls, move all the furniture and vacuum under, next to and around it. We did a little downsizing, putting unwanted or unused items into a box for an upcoming garage sale. We worked most of the day and still aren't done. We are going to steam clean the furniture and the carpet but since we didn't finish everything else that will have to wait.
I went off on a tangent there....oh, yes. My point in explaining all that was that we were busy, which is why I didn't use the amount of points I usually do.
I weighed myself today and gained .6 pounds from last week. My goal is to NOT gain weight on a regular basis, which I have been. I have alot of weight to lose...now it's up to about 130 pounds to reach the weight I'd like to maintain. Brian and I want to have kids soon...we actually wanted to try again once I found a job, but I am pretty sure I won't have lost enough weight for that to be a good idea. Not only that, but we'd like to have our own place, insurance and a few other important things, before having another baby. I wanted Mason and his first sibling to be about 2 years apart so that they would have a close relationship as they grew up, and I was having a hard time accepting the fact that we'd have to wait a bit longer...but I want to do the next pregnancy the right way.
I gained about 35 lbs. during my pregnancy with Mason. I lost about 25 lbs. the first month and I have slowly gained that back. Now I am starting to gain a bit more and that is just not acceptable. If I don't lose some weight before having another baby I know I will just continue to get bigger and bigger....I don't intend on losing 140 lbs before getting pregnant again. I would like to lose at least 50 lbs. though. If I lose more...that's fabulous. But that is what I am shooting for.
Today was one step closer.
Up until about 5 months ago we had two long haired cats that shed ALOT. We found them a new home in March because they were cooped up in the apartment because Brian's mom is allergic, and after experiencing life without cat hair, we stopped going out in to the apartment as often and they weren't getting enough attention....so back to today. We were working on getting the cat hair out. To do that we have to dust everything, wash the walls, move all the furniture and vacuum under, next to and around it. We did a little downsizing, putting unwanted or unused items into a box for an upcoming garage sale. We worked most of the day and still aren't done. We are going to steam clean the furniture and the carpet but since we didn't finish everything else that will have to wait.
I went off on a tangent there....oh, yes. My point in explaining all that was that we were busy, which is why I didn't use the amount of points I usually do.
I weighed myself today and gained .6 pounds from last week. My goal is to NOT gain weight on a regular basis, which I have been. I have alot of weight to lose...now it's up to about 130 pounds to reach the weight I'd like to maintain. Brian and I want to have kids soon...we actually wanted to try again once I found a job, but I am pretty sure I won't have lost enough weight for that to be a good idea. Not only that, but we'd like to have our own place, insurance and a few other important things, before having another baby. I wanted Mason and his first sibling to be about 2 years apart so that they would have a close relationship as they grew up, and I was having a hard time accepting the fact that we'd have to wait a bit longer...but I want to do the next pregnancy the right way.
I gained about 35 lbs. during my pregnancy with Mason. I lost about 25 lbs. the first month and I have slowly gained that back. Now I am starting to gain a bit more and that is just not acceptable. If I don't lose some weight before having another baby I know I will just continue to get bigger and bigger....I don't intend on losing 140 lbs before getting pregnant again. I would like to lose at least 50 lbs. though. If I lose more...that's fabulous. But that is what I am shooting for.
Today was one step closer.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Day 8
Today is day 8. I think I have done pretty darn well!! For some reason I crave sweeter things at breakfast, so I need to steer clear of that eventually. For lunch I had tuna fish and a pita and a massive pile of broccoli. Dinner was very tasty and consisted of grilled chicken and potatoes and we just got back from having lemon soft serve….yum! Today was a good day…I just need to keep it up!
Crap...I just remembered I forgot to weigh myself. Better do it tomorrow.
Crap...I just remembered I forgot to weigh myself. Better do it tomorrow.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Days 3-7
Obviously I haven’t been keeping up with my daily posts….I spent a long weekend at my mom’s. Let me give you an update:
I stopped counting points on Tuesday. I think knowing that we weren’t planning to count points over the weekend while at my mom’s didn’t help. I did, however, become more mindful of what I was eating. And for not counting points, I didn’t do all that terrible. I even ate some fruit and veggies!
We left late Thursday afternoon, and still hadn’t had lunch. Instead of stopping to get fast food as we planned, I made us (my hubby, Brian and I) sandwiches consisting of lean deli chicken, whole wheat bread, a slice of provolone cheese and mustard. No fat, no mayo, no grease. It was great! We did grab a bag of Doritos from Glen’s before we left, but I didn’t like the flavor we got. It was a new flavor; jalapeño popper….it was too spicy for me and tasted a little stale. Instead of eating them anyway, I stopped after realizing I didn’t care for them. Yay me! I had a yogurt also. We got a pizza from Little Caesars for dinner and I did eat 3 pieces….
On Friday we took my son to the zoo. Anyone who has been to the zoo knows the goodies that can be eaten there…I ate NONE of these things. I did spend $3 on a bottle of water though. Ugh. We didn’t get to the zoo till 1 pm and had lunch before hand….I had a 6 inch turkey and roast beef sub from subway!!! Another yay for me! After the zoo we were wanting a snack…I was craving frozen lemonade but couldn’t find any. Brian really wanted cheeseburgers from White Castle but I wasn’t in the mood for grease. (After smelling them I changed my mind and had one of his little mini cheeseburgers…) I opted for a banana walnut muffin and iced cappuccino from Tim Hortons. Yeah, not very figure friendly, but it could have been a WHOLE lot worse. Dinner that night was even better…grilled chicken and cold sesame noodles and also a half of a cob of corn on the cob.
Saturday was the day Brian and I were leaving Mason with my mom while we went camping to celebrate our anniversary a week late. The weather didn’t cooperate and we just went into the city and did some shopping and saw a movie. We had planned on going out to a nice dinner that night but I was missing my boo boo (my son’s nickname) and my mom had made lasagna. Sounded good to us, so went and had dinner there.
Today it is beyond hot and I have been sweating my ass off all day long. Hot and humid = no appetite for me. I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and snacked on some cheezit’s before lunch. We had pizza again….but I stopped eating before I was full.
All in all, I didn’t have the greatest weekend for food, but I am proud of the fact that I never over ate and I didn’t eat anything I didn’t enjoy. For the most part, I also chose healthier options over greasy, fast food. Tomorrow I will remember this and strive to do much better. It’s time to me to stop messing around and commit to a healthier lifestyle.
I stopped counting points on Tuesday. I think knowing that we weren’t planning to count points over the weekend while at my mom’s didn’t help. I did, however, become more mindful of what I was eating. And for not counting points, I didn’t do all that terrible. I even ate some fruit and veggies!
We left late Thursday afternoon, and still hadn’t had lunch. Instead of stopping to get fast food as we planned, I made us (my hubby, Brian and I) sandwiches consisting of lean deli chicken, whole wheat bread, a slice of provolone cheese and mustard. No fat, no mayo, no grease. It was great! We did grab a bag of Doritos from Glen’s before we left, but I didn’t like the flavor we got. It was a new flavor; jalapeño popper….it was too spicy for me and tasted a little stale. Instead of eating them anyway, I stopped after realizing I didn’t care for them. Yay me! I had a yogurt also. We got a pizza from Little Caesars for dinner and I did eat 3 pieces….
On Friday we took my son to the zoo. Anyone who has been to the zoo knows the goodies that can be eaten there…I ate NONE of these things. I did spend $3 on a bottle of water though. Ugh. We didn’t get to the zoo till 1 pm and had lunch before hand….I had a 6 inch turkey and roast beef sub from subway!!! Another yay for me! After the zoo we were wanting a snack…I was craving frozen lemonade but couldn’t find any. Brian really wanted cheeseburgers from White Castle but I wasn’t in the mood for grease. (After smelling them I changed my mind and had one of his little mini cheeseburgers…) I opted for a banana walnut muffin and iced cappuccino from Tim Hortons. Yeah, not very figure friendly, but it could have been a WHOLE lot worse. Dinner that night was even better…grilled chicken and cold sesame noodles and also a half of a cob of corn on the cob.
Saturday was the day Brian and I were leaving Mason with my mom while we went camping to celebrate our anniversary a week late. The weather didn’t cooperate and we just went into the city and did some shopping and saw a movie. We had planned on going out to a nice dinner that night but I was missing my boo boo (my son’s nickname) and my mom had made lasagna. Sounded good to us, so went and had dinner there.
Today it is beyond hot and I have been sweating my ass off all day long. Hot and humid = no appetite for me. I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and snacked on some cheezit’s before lunch. We had pizza again….but I stopped eating before I was full.
All in all, I didn’t have the greatest weekend for food, but I am proud of the fact that I never over ate and I didn’t eat anything I didn’t enjoy. For the most part, I also chose healthier options over greasy, fast food. Tomorrow I will remember this and strive to do much better. It’s time to me to stop messing around and commit to a healthier lifestyle.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Day 2
Day 2 is almost over and though I didn't count my points today, I didn't do all that bad either. I didn't go to McDonalds for lunch like I wanted (I opted for Subway), I didn't get any junk food when I went grocery shopping, and I didn't make crap for dinner. That being said, I am pretty sure if I would have been counting points, I would have definitely gone over. Well over. Like I did last night....
So, for now I am satisfied with making healthier decisions. Yesterday I beat myself up for not being strictly on program and today I decided that it's not the end of the world if I don't count points...I just need to eat mindfully and choose the healthier alternative.
Now if you'll excuse me I'm off to enjoy a late dinner of sauteed chicken and couscous with toasted pine nuts. Yum.
So, for now I am satisfied with making healthier decisions. Yesterday I beat myself up for not being strictly on program and today I decided that it's not the end of the world if I don't count points...I just need to eat mindfully and choose the healthier alternative.
Now if you'll excuse me I'm off to enjoy a late dinner of sauteed chicken and couscous with toasted pine nuts. Yum.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Day 1
I have not mastered the art of blogging yet...and I don't always get my thoughts organized in a easily readable manner...so bear with me.
To sum it up, I have joined Weight Watchers Online. I have been struggling with staying on program, so I thought it might help to start a blog that I will post daily, describing my struggles and successes that I encounter each day. There are so many obvious as well as personal reasons why I NEED, HAVE, and WANT to succeed...I will share those eventually. Until then, I welcome any and all comments/feedback/support.
Day 1-Monday, Aug. 3
Sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to go to bed. LOL…what I mean is that before I go to bed I make a list of the tasks I am going to accomplish the next day. These tasks are usually pretty optimistic and developed while I am feeling very motivated. Like last night, for example. I made a short list of things that you’d think I would have no problem doing. I was determined and sure that I would get them done today. I was going to get up at 6:30 am, a half hour before Mason usually wakes up, and do my workout video. I was going to finish organizing my bedroom and put laundry away. Of course when my alarm goes off at 6:30 I am dead to the world and want nothing more but to sleep until Mason wakes up. Well, that I did…but I have decided to take a bike ride after Brian gets home from work. Rain or shine…or at least that’s the plan. Those other things on my list…not done yet either. But I still have a few hours…so I’ll worry about it later.
Food-wise I have done alright. Toast with peanut butter for breakfast, yogurt and a Fiber One bar for a snack, homemade black bean soup and a Lean Cuisine chicken pizza. I’m still hungry after all this; and it’s only a little past noon. I had a banana…then I had 2 servings of mini-chips ahoy cookies. Sigh. I can still count it, but that only leaves me 4 points to play with after my chili for dinner. I need to get creative…and have a massive plate of green veggies along side my chili. But I can do it. I HAVE to do it. Day 1 is always the hardest.
The little one is taking a nap…I am going to do the same. I’ll cross more things off my list later.
To sum it up, I have joined Weight Watchers Online. I have been struggling with staying on program, so I thought it might help to start a blog that I will post daily, describing my struggles and successes that I encounter each day. There are so many obvious as well as personal reasons why I NEED, HAVE, and WANT to succeed...I will share those eventually. Until then, I welcome any and all comments/feedback/support.
Day 1-Monday, Aug. 3
Sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to go to bed. LOL…what I mean is that before I go to bed I make a list of the tasks I am going to accomplish the next day. These tasks are usually pretty optimistic and developed while I am feeling very motivated. Like last night, for example. I made a short list of things that you’d think I would have no problem doing. I was determined and sure that I would get them done today. I was going to get up at 6:30 am, a half hour before Mason usually wakes up, and do my workout video. I was going to finish organizing my bedroom and put laundry away. Of course when my alarm goes off at 6:30 I am dead to the world and want nothing more but to sleep until Mason wakes up. Well, that I did…but I have decided to take a bike ride after Brian gets home from work. Rain or shine…or at least that’s the plan. Those other things on my list…not done yet either. But I still have a few hours…so I’ll worry about it later.
Food-wise I have done alright. Toast with peanut butter for breakfast, yogurt and a Fiber One bar for a snack, homemade black bean soup and a Lean Cuisine chicken pizza. I’m still hungry after all this; and it’s only a little past noon. I had a banana…then I had 2 servings of mini-chips ahoy cookies. Sigh. I can still count it, but that only leaves me 4 points to play with after my chili for dinner. I need to get creative…and have a massive plate of green veggies along side my chili. But I can do it. I HAVE to do it. Day 1 is always the hardest.
The little one is taking a nap…I am going to do the same. I’ll cross more things off my list later.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
One Day at a Time
This is my engagement photo. Pretty good looking couple, if I do say so myself! This was taken in October of 2003. Almost 6 years ago. Lots of things have changed since then. Including my weight. ESPECIALLY my weight. I have gained about 75 pounds since this photo was taken. 
This photo was taken on New Years Eve 2008. Just a few weeks ago. Still a good looking couple. But I cringe at the shape my face and the rest of my body has taken. I have tried dozens of times to lose weight, start Weight Watchers, and exercise. Something always happens where I get off track. I am going to work harder this time around. I am going to take baby steps. I have set larger goals before, but they seem intimidating and I think that's why I give up eventually. I am going to start setting small goals that I can reach and then work up to larger goals.
I am on day 2. My goal this week is to count every single point, every day. Except of course for my cheat day :) I need to exercise as well, and I will try very hard to do so, but I am not going to agonize over it yet. So far so good. I haven't waivered. I haven't cheated. I haven't given in and had that burger I wanted the other day.
I will lose weight this time. I'm just taking it one day at a time.
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